Over the last few months, I feel like I've reached a metaphorical crossroads in my life. I am wrestling with who I am as a person and who I want to be. Since I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, I've tried very hard to repress those aspects of my personality. I take pharmaceuticals that … Continue reading Does My Diagnosis Define Me?
When having a conversation with someone struggling with Borderline Personality Disorder, you're likely to encounter something like this. It's a classic double-bind scenario, or for those of us Trekkies, a Kobayashi Maru that even James T. Kirk can't win. "Hey, how's it going?" "Leave me alone." "I'm sorry. Are you OK?" "I'm fine. Leave me … Continue reading Conversations from the Borderline
Welcome to my latest Desert Island Top 5 post. This week's theme is another musical one - Top 5 Anxiety Attack Albums. No, these are not albums I listen to in order to trigger an anxiety attack. These are my go-to albums that bring me back to chill when I start to lose my shit. … Continue reading Desert Island Top 5: Anxiety Attack Albums
Over the weekend, there was a story in the local San Diego news about a man who crashed his Lamborghini into a tree, destroying the car, killing himself, and ejecting his passenger. According to CW San Diego, the man was a medical marijuana millionaire who lived quite a lavish lifestyle. His company released a statement … Continue reading What Does It Profit a Man?
Although it began as a total beatdown, Penn State saw its perfect football season come to a sour end with a one-point loss to Ohio State. While the entire season isn't over yet, if you listen to some Penn State fans, you'd believe it was. I, too, wept when presented with the reality that Penn … Continue reading Penn State Perspective
I wasn't there when my father died. My father died on May 12, 2006. I was on active duty in the Navy and stationed in Newport, RI when it happened. In fact, I had just transferred from San Diego and had just finished my first week at my new command. My father and I did … Continue reading My Father
Previously, I mentioned that I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD). I've written a lot about my anxiety and depression, but I've been mostly silent on my BPD. It's not that I'm ashamed of that particular diagnosis; I never quite understood what it meant. Now, however, it finally sank through the six or seven … Continue reading My Borderline Personality Disorder and Me
Be a man. Take it like a man. Man up. What does that even mean anymore? The Harvey Weinstein story has me preoccupied with the idea of the male gender role in our society. Specifically, how he got away with what he did for so long, even though everyone knew about it. When I was … Continue reading Boys Will Be…
In honor of World Mental Health Day, I thought I would tell my own mental health story. I have been formally diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), which symptoms include anxiety and depression. There are also some in my friends/family who believe I also struggle with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) from my time in the Navy. I wish … Continue reading My Mental Health Story
Michael Richard (Mike) Pence, Vice President of the United States of America Over the weekend, our esteemed Veep (the real-life one, not the HBO series) was criticized for two things resulting from the same event: He used a recycled picture on Twitter (the horror!) He walked out on the Colts-49ers game because some players chose … Continue reading Hypocrisy, Thy Name Is…