My idea of the perfect date used to be May 12.
The worst feeling in the world to me is letting my friends and family down after doing well for so long. Many of the terms used to refer to addiction recovery are also used to refer to mental illness in general. One of the common terms is "relapse". The dictionary defines "relapse" as: My relapse … Continue reading Borderline Relapse
An argument that takes place entirely in my mind between me and my Anxiety: Me: I'm going to do a thing. Anxiety: Ooh, that sounds like fun! We should totally do that! Me: Are you sure? You're not going to ruin it this time, are you? Anxiety: Nah, I'm stoked about this! Let's do this! … Continue reading Arguing with Anxiety
I am beyond humbled to be nominated for a Liebster Award 2018. What I began as a way to vent my frustrations with my struggles with mental illness has grown more than I ever imagined. Over the past few months, I've met more people than I ever dreamed who shared my experiences. I'd like to … Continue reading Liebster Award 2018
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end. I'm sure you've heard that cliché before, but as a child of the 1990s, I beg your indulgence. There are just a few hours left in 2017 here in sunny Southern California. When I wake up tomorrow, it will be a new year. It will also … Continue reading Borderline Beginnings
The Christmas/Holiday season is hard on a lot of people. While many are snuggled together by a fire or dropping money into a Salvation Army Red Kettle as they nudge eager children into a store, there are others who see this time of year through different eyes. For some, this time of year is a … Continue reading Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas. No, Really…
As of this writing, it is seven days until Christmas (six more shopping days). The stocking are hung by the chimney with care, the egg nog is chilling in the fridge, The Salvation Army is ringing its bell outside the stores, and most of the neighborhood went Clark Griswold on their home decorations this year. … Continue reading A Christmas Story?
OK, God, I got a bone to pick with you. According to Psalm 139, I am "fearfully and wonderfully made": For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13-14 That … Continue reading Borderline Faith, Part 2
I am a Christian. My family and I go to church, The Salvation Army El Cajon Corps (yes, The Salvation Army is a church) on a regular basis. We are very active and volunteer much of our time there. We consider ourselves to be a Christian family. That statement has a negative connotation to it … Continue reading Borderline Faith
I went down to the crossroads. Fell down on my knees. I went down to the crossroads. Fell down on my knees. Asked the Lord above for mercy, "Take me if you please." I was once told by some professor in college never to start off with an apology. I'm about to break that rule. … Continue reading Crossroads